A Hurt Deep Within…

There is hurt deep within.

Since a few days, the mind is unable to ignore an incident. And if the mind holds something, the heart is certainly affected. 

How do I begin to describe what is going on… It may seem very trivial yet it is something that has taken control of my being.

As usual, words have to be poured from within to find the balm for this wound. Self-conversation is the way out of any turmoil. So I write here, looking for the answer to appear from within.

When life gives us an opportunity to serve someone, as devotees we pour out our hearts and soul. I too did the same. Yet I was under the illusion that I was doing it without any expectations. There was nothing I expected in return is what I claimed, yet deep within now I know I looked for an acknowledgement. For when even a minimal “Thank You” was not received, the heart was hurt and the mind was constantly reminded of this. 

Today as I look for answers here, I understand one thing.

My senses…..

The heart and the mind are being controlled by the senses and hence they want a seen and a heard response. They need to receive something from the physical world and then the ego will be pacified. Else the vacuum stays and turns into a wound.

Well now if I turn my understanding to the fact that, the act of giving is a sacred form of worship. Though the physical and mental faculties are used the act by itself is divine energy that only the giver can experience. 

If the universe is using you as an instrument to offer something there is an energy that it sends to the receiver through you. You can give nothing yet you give. For you are the chosen one to hand over the gift of the universe to the recipient.

What an experience and that bliss of being a mediator is an acknowledgement by the Universe itself that it is guiding you on the spiritual path.

The lesson — Nothing is yours to give so you can actually give nothing. Yet if you hold a compassionate and kind heart, a seeking spirit, the Universe offers you an opportunity to feel the bliss of offering something.

Keep your senses aside and fill your heart with kindness and love. You can do this by His grace alone. Transform into an instrument to hand over precious gifts to many more and feel the Supreme One in these moments.