Ask Your Father

DISCLAIMER : उद्यमेन हि सिध्यन्ति कार्याणि न मनोरथैः । न हि सुप्तस्य सिंहस्य प्रविशन्ति मुखे मृगाः ॥

I remember growing up reading the judicial section of news paper  , hoping to get into judicial field  some day , so that I could get Justice for everyone. My dreams were so big that I laugh now.

Teachers in my school, my friends, whenever they got into any dispute I was called to decide the case. I always took it most sincerely like a case study. [ You can laugh at me :-D]

Everybody around me knew this dream of mine, of going to Law school and seeing supreme court as the  Mecca of Moksha. I had immense faith in justice system contrary to what is shown in Hindi movies, coz my papa is an advocate and an honest one.

Meaning, I never had the funds to pay for my Law school and papa felt that Law is not suitable for me and honesty is not rewarded.

Anyways, my Mom gave me the choice,  – Application for law school or crash course for engineering.

Seriously, I had no books to prepare for Law school and they were quite expensive, I had to chose the latter.

Funds? I asked my mom , Can we afford it ? 

She replied ,”Go and ask your father”, it is not my responsibility.

I never had any issues with papa, I never asked him for anything unless absolutely necessary  and  never for a moment I felt like asking to him because I knew he could not afford and trust me I never had any expectations from my father regarding the fees. Whatever , he could give me I was happy. 

I thought may be, my mom would ask her family for support, but it just clicked me, “I just need to ask my father, I am so stupid”

I immediately , went to the courtyard of our small shiva temple and told him 

My mom says,

                  you  should take care of my education. Since you have not asked me. Let me tell you my plans. I have decide a college XYZ please get me a seat in ABC  and my fees.

                   Mom also  says you know better , so your choice should prevail.

That’s it.

The counselling day came,  I along with my elder sister went for the counselling in  a major city ,  both equally clueless about the engineering. It was here , that I got to know about the other streams. 

Upon my turn, the counsellor asked  about any elder accompanying us. We said No.

He asked me, You won’t regret later about the choice or Would you ?

He then turned the screen, 

it exactly showed  1 seat in ABC branch and in XYZ college.  Should I confirm this  choice ?

My mom has always said, if you approach with humility, a teacher always help. This thought kicked in  – My wish or His wish.

I decided to ask counsellor- Sir,  Could you please choose the stream and college for me. We completely trust you. I know you will  pick what is best for me.

He then chose a different college for me with a full government scholarship for open category. This is the best option for you. Shall I lock it ?

I nodded YES!

So whenever, someone has said, Go and ask your father or Go tell your father or Can your father afford , I think it is actually my divine father telling me, Seriously Why are you troubling others,  you should rather ask me. 

I never doubted my father’s capabilities, some of my rich envious cousin would taunt me , you behave like your father is some MP/MLA – so much of confidence.

I just smiled. [ The world belongs to my father, isn’t it]

UPDATE:  I realized, it is also my Karma to not mislead people in the name of devotion. Please note :

1. God help those who help themselves. 
2. उद्यमेन हि सिध्यन्ति कार्याणि न मनोरथैः । न हि सुप्तस्य सिंहस्य प्रविशन्ति मुखे मृगाः ॥

3. क्षणशः कणशश्चैव विद्यामर्थं च साधयेत् । क्षणे नष्टे कुतो विद्या कणे नष्टे कुतो धनम् ॥