Beloved’s Beloved- 11

I held both hands of the beloved and said: Please don’t go,and if you must,then take me along.

He said: My body is not going,it will remain here,but I will go.The doctors have tried their best.You have done so much in caring for me,that I can’t repay you,but I can’t live more. Don’t feel sorry if any pandit tells you that you have sinned and I shall take revenge. Whatever happened,it happened unknowingly.If still you can’t wash your mind of the sin, then I say ‘ I forgive your sin’ .So, you should be fearless. What I have told you is that you are a soul, please do remember. But remembering this is a bit difficult.

Now again, I started crying and wailing. Without seeing the beloved, I could not stay even for a moment. There was so much comfort in serving him.His attraction kept me tied. His goodness had made me forget all other pleasures like playing, entertainment and merriments.

He says,’I am going to die.’ The doctor says,’He is alright now.’ He says ,’I am going to die.’ But the doctor is like everybody.He knows nothing.What the beloved says has to be correct.

I said: Oh! I will die also.I shall pierce the same arrow in my heart and jump in the pyre.

He kept quiet.Closed his eyes,then opened his eyes and said: You are a soul. Don’t pierce the arrow in your heart and don’t jump in the pyre.If you do that,then you won’t come to where I am going.But if you do as I say,then when you die, you will come to where I am going.

I cried and said: How will I come? My playing and my merriments have spoiled me. Why did you not meet me before my arrow left the bow?

He said:There is another man,who is the master of all men,who is the most beloved in the world.I love him.If you do one thing that I tell you to do,then he will come to you.He loves me very much.He will love you also and he will make you see your soul truly.Whatever,I have said,he will fulfill.He is my master.I am his servant.He is my father.I am his servant son.You have done so much service for me. Because of his love for me,he will come to you. You have loved me.He will reward you for that.Reward that even the rich kings don’t have.

I said: Who can be more beloved than you?But ,since you say he is the most beloved person,I agree,he must be.You say that he loves you.I have come to love him too.But you give me his address.I shall run to him and beseech him,saying,”You are the beloved of my beloved. Please save the body of my beloved.For whatever sin I have done,it will be forgiven by my serving him for the rest of my life,and not leaving him even for a moment.I love him immensely.You love him immensely also.I don’t wish that he should die.How can you see him dying ? You,who can see the soul as separate from the body,can also save the body.Please come and save him,who is the beloved of both of us.”

Listening to my innocent and eager wish,my beloved laughed and said:O innocent girl, there is somebody else who is his beloved who has never come to this world in human form,who is the creator and savior of the entire universe.

His wish is that I should be sent.He is happy in the wish of his beloved,and I am happy in the wish of my beloved.If you have true love for me,then you should be happy in my wish.

I said: Are you happy to die?

He replied: Knowing that it is the wish of my beloved, I am happy.

I said to my mind:O , Lord, that’s why,he is so good. Everybody on this earth is afraid of death but he is happy to die.

I said to him:Why are you not afraid of death?

He replied: Nothing dies.The body goes to earth.The soul,that I am, will enjoy in the palace of the Lord.I have to go and lay myself at the feet of the Lord. That’s why, I don’t cry.Remain happy.If you cry,I won’t be happy with you.

When I listened to this, I was scared and I trembled.

I asked him:Shall I have the same feeling for your beloved as I have for you?

He said: Whatever feeling of love you have for me is because of my beloved in my heart,who is all love, for which reason you have the feeling of love in me.You will feel that he is your beloved.He is all love.He will love you.

But he will come and meet you if you do one thing day and night.

I said: What is that?

He said:”While strolling and walking….

While sitting and standing…..

Keep on reciting…. WAHEGURU… WAHEGURU…”

He said this and his lips closed.He closed his eyes.

After a moment,he uttered,”WAHEGURU… WAHEGURU.” several times.

His eyes opened in a wondrous style and closed.

It was morning now.My mother came and said: Daughter,he has died.

To be continued….