Father … grand father did solitude depress you?

Solitude is a great practice for self introspection and going inwards to know our re occuring  mind / life patterns or tendencies and brainy chattering!

But in name of cutting social ties and interacting with people are we under depression and sadness?

Dealing with any other human being requires us to absorb his expectations,views, comments or action,our ego most of the times does not like to be commented or corrected upon ! As Swami ji said then talk to Siri 

Is in name of solitude are we running away from people saying we r self introspecting and then reading books, watching t.v or using excessive watts app or just keep cleaning drawers,cabinets,doors or re organising clothes , utensils and books? Is that first step to solitude?

My paternal grand father was a sick and lonely man after his kids got married,life partner died and even market freinds were no more a company ,he selling his house for financial assistance and moving at an un known colony. On other hand my own father took early retirement but never engaged himself in any physical or social commitment/ company.

Mind you both My Father and Maternal grandfather use to meditate and do Gayatri Mantra japp respectively regularly,they had no Guru though and maybe dint know the correct way but both fell in depression and loneliness.

Recently both my kids were away from me for a week ,i have always been around my Father ( before my marriage) and my children ( after marriage..i got the first one within 9 months of marriage). So physical touch , cajoling and loving talks have always been part of my life style.

Though my mom my husband and our house helps and chores were around this whole week but there was some unexplained emptiness,ache or acidity i felt in my heart.

I used black Lotus, Sadhna app, os.me ,watched many spiritual vedios,did my excercise, ate healthy food and slept on time leading a healthy lifestyle.

But there was something a miss.

Do all/ any of you encounter this emptiness in heart?

I have never been a sadhak/ meditator and my first reason to come to Spirituality/ Swamiji was self created mystery so even sitting for hours in meditation, jaap or yagna is not easy for me.

Also neither have I been a singer,gardener, photographer, make up expert, dancer,painter ,a great cook or  reader to develop them as hobbies. Aswell leaving home to go out not a great option according to husband s irratic work timings.

Do others feel at times uncomfortable and uneasy and trapped in tere  current situation or is this a mind game?

Any suggestions os.me to overcome it?