Greed and Hatred

 I  was attending a  party  when a young woman approached  close to me and asked – “Can you borrow me  a five hundred  rupee note?”

She had asked me so unexpectedly. I looked suspectly at her for a while.  “  I want to give something to the  bride ?”    She continued.

 I knew her well and I knew that she had already gifted the bride. She is asking for somebody else, somebody…. with whom I don’t have good terms. These two women have successfully put me down so many times with their clever words etc. Thoughts of their past actions overflowed throughout my mind calculating profit and loss and showing me in a loss.

 “ She manipulates people”- my mind shouted.

“No, I don’t have……. my husband gave me a gift envelope which I have to gift the girl” word ran through my mouth like an automated wending machine. I lied.

 Still, she came near and  sat close to me trying to push me for money-“In the past, you always used to have…” She spoke in a lower tone.

“No, I don’t have now” I stood firm on my words.

But there were people around and she went away after a while …… maybe, feeling awkward.

 “These two wicked women, they are accompanied by their husbands and still asking me for money. Something is going on between them”.I was thinking in my mind( almost furious).

But…. Just, after a while, something pricked my heart …..

 “A 500 rupee note is not a big deal even if I lose it, I may have given her…” it murmured.

   “ The best time to give something to somebody is when one is in need. Besides her other traits, I knew she is also a giver. The difference is that she prefers giving, only to whom she prefers.”

  “She may have returned me later,”  I spoke to myself

Thoughts kept on popping up one after another. I felt bad at the moment. What a mediocre act I have done. I realized this only after a while. When I am trying to be spiritual all the time Greed and Hatred engulfed me and I was totally unaware of it.

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