Healing from Trauma

It pains me to write that tagline, because I know the value of not getting guidence when I really, desperately needed one, which was not just once, but many times in the past. When I actually felt I finally got the right teacher, it seemed too late as a certain helplessness had set in that refused to leave me. I know, its pretty dark, most of my posts in the past have been. But frankly, I only write when there is a push from inside and I end up writing whatever my confused self feels at the time.

I have had moments of clarity though! None of the awesome me would exist without this dark contrast. I have started respecting it more, accepting it more. Sometimes I feel extremely thankful and simply get it on why the elders and awakened souls stress on the importance of being thankful for what we have. You see, its understandable that we get dejected when sometimes we get short changed by life. And “sometimes” is an understatement, but that is just one part of the story that our negative bias forces us to see. Because there are some things that are going right as well, we are just not able to see them. And training ourselves to see those, creates a kind of empowerment in our very being. That process of training to see the good is bhakti, pranayam, meditation in my eyes. In one of my peevious posts about “toxic positivity” I wrote exact opposite of what I am writing today. Thats because I am comparatively wiser now. 🙂

God, or goodness that just is, is still beyond my understanding, but sometimes I feel the clouds clearing up, even though for very brief moments. Sometimes I feel like thanking the very design of my mind that I found myself struggling with in the past. Its very brief as I said, but its beautiful to feel that way. And that, my friends, came after undergoing through extremely painful experiences. I am not sure if its worth it yet, because I am still walking the path, may be one day I will write back a positive post on that. Or may be it will again be a mixed one like this. I am sure it won’t be just negative, I just am sure about that. I get this faith from my brief moments of clarity. 

Thanks for taking time to read it! Have a great rest of your day 🙂