Healing is Like Mathematics..

     kahin dur jab din dhal jaaye,

        Saanjh ki dulhan 

Badan churaaye, chupke se aaye

Mere khayaalo ke Aangan mai…

 Koi Sapno ke deep jalaaye

           Deep jalaaye…

Remember the song… one of the most popular song of Anand staring Late Rajesh Khanna and Amitabh Bachhan. The song was sung by Late Mukesh ji. Today while going through some posts suddenly this song came to my mind.  This song gives a feeling in stomach. Is nt it? A feeling of nostalgia..and also a feeling of unseen divinity..a love that stays in the horizon,  a search for light..in the darkness, a tunnel never ending!!!errrrrrrrr…hard to describe. The lyrics were written by Late Yogesh Gaur ji. I wonder what must be in his mind while scribbling the poem.was he writing this for his lost love or he felt divine connection!!no idea… Life is never simple.. It has always been a longing.. ,a longing for love,for desire,for ambition ,  a longing for happiness, peace, a longing to see God in your bare eyes… almost everything..and may be we start to search our purpose in this.Finding purpose in life is also not meant for everyone. For a rickshaw puller it might be to save his family from starvation or to make money  and only that much to have beer at the end of the day.If you will ask him what is your purpose he might answer you this. So its not easy.  Life was never easy for anyone. We balance between.  We experience pain, pleasure, sorrow everything. 

                    In today’s post Master asked to reveal one regret. It is always His kindness that matters. Really, no one has asked this before. Absolutely no one. Personally I have many regrets.. But then slowly some of them are fading and some are still there. I have been wounded,  betrayed, I also have temper,  anger issue , i rebel , I mean a lot of things . So am I being better person? I do not know. I try to be. Sometimes I succeed and sometimes the negativity gulps me. Its always a fight between good and evil. And it will continue.  I am happy that Master is the witness of my karma, my thinking. Life seems to be less scary  when I am holding Him. Jai Shri Hari..

I read the post of Elena ji. Thank you for the courage you mustered..Proud of you. Sushri Diya ji, the more light you throw about your life, the more divinity I feel …thank you …