Higher Values of Life

I think its Swamiji’s quote that “when the truth knocks, it knocks you down”. Something similar happened with me. I will keep it short as I will be unable to write all that I want to communicate. 

I suppose we as humans are designed to be self obsessed. And sometimes, when we intellectually know better,  we supress that part of ourselves and try to abondan it. In my case it happened to an extent that I completely tried to suppress my “needy” part. And inadvertantly I was subconsciously being run by that emotion. You can not think your way out of life. There has to be a balance between logic and emotions. Too much of either causes an imbalance in being. 

I always wondered why my potential was not getting fully utilised inspite of me knowing the right thing, inspite of me trying to do the right thing. Its when I got desperate for that answer, I took a leap of faith with full confidence in myself, only to get completely torn apart in the process ( the process is too personal for me to share ). It took every bit of positive strength I could muster to rebuild myself to survive that breaking of illusions that I had developed in order to survive all these years. Turns out, I got it all wrong, the question itself is wrong. The question is not why am I not living my potential, the question is why am I not happy being where I am? Apparently, once you figure out what attitude is making you suffer, then the real work starts. You just do the doing one day at a time, ensuring to build the memory (mindfulness) to keep you from falling back in that attitude. And that does not come by telling ones feelings off, or forcing oneself to believe in something. It comes by being honest with ones own self. 

I am very thankful for whatever resources I have ( in the form of Swamiji’ posts, videos, books, my belief in advait philosophy, my guide, my friend, the list is long) because these were enough when I really truly needed them. 

The importance of believing in higher values of life can never be underestimated in trying times. 

Thanks for taking time to read my post!