I Smiled…

“Do not let the behavior of others destroy your inner peace.” —Dalai Lama

His Holiness Dalai Lama always inspired me. As Swami says we have to be like a honeybee, collect nectar from all beautiful flowers and make your own honey.

I remember I used to be a very angry teenager whose mental peace was just like a bubble. Someone will come and say something to my mother and my urge to shoutout at them was normal for me, I didn’t knew that shouting at someone is not a solution we have to talk first, what’s your problem, what you want. Being in joint family beings happiness but it also brings conflicts, but that’s a different topic of discussion let me not get diverted towards it. I used to come back to my normal state after the attack of anger. But what’s the point I already said harsh things to them.

But something changed with time. Inner peace was not a topic of discussion for me, it was not like I’m just putting whatsapp statuses of peace and bullying someone in real life. Nowadays reel life is famous and it’s becoming more important and we are neglecting the Real Life. I’m not saying that I’m someone who’s above all this, I’m a human too, I also have that urge to show off, urge to feel alone. But what I can see clearly is that these thoughts don’t last for longer time. Earlier my mind was their occupied apartment but now they are just visitors… They don’t disturb me because I know they’ll leave soon.

It’s not something happened in just one day, maybe there are great beings who’ll claim they experienced something for a moment and everything got changed, maybe it’s possible afterall it’s their truth. But mine case is slightly different, I’m learning to be more mindful now, slowly slowly I believe I’ll change because I can see a positive change. If something is bringing a nice change in me then that’s worth it.

One thing which I always keep in my mind is that, I’ll not do anything with anyone which I don’t accept for myself. 

One day a beautiful soul messaged me on instagram and said, your faith in divine is inspiring.

And another day a beautiful soul came in my Instagram DM and said why following Swami, modern Guru’s and all. I said nothing because I don’t need to prove anything, I have seen my Swami so I remained quiet and said Jai Shri Hari. Everyone is not expected to accept divine. I don’t want my Swami to get too busy, he is already doing a lot of work and I don’t want to hurt him by indulging in any argument. I thanked Swami to bless me with this wisdom.

 I smiled and looked at Swami and said it’s because of you. 

I’m becoming better because of you.You are my light Narayan.You are my happiness. 

You are my ultimate refuge.

May I be the dog of your abode.

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