Lazy Wednesday

I woke up earlier than usual this morning.

The curtain was not pulled all the way and the morning bright light peaked in at dawn, together with the birds singing their happy tunes outside my window. 

I remember watching one of Swamiji’s videos on YouTube in which he said something like, “Get out of bed as soon as you wake up, otherwise one hour later you are still going to be there” (I am not quoting, rather paraphrasing). This morning I did not listen to you, Swamiji. I stay up late at night because those are my favorite hours and when the sun comes up the next day my body says no thanks I’m staying under the cover. What is it going to take for me to not listen to it anymore? I want to change this pattern. I mean, how many hours of sleep does an older body really need? Do you know?

Eyes closed I noticed the sensation of my warm breath exiting the nostrils, followed by a slower inhale to fill my belly, lungs, heart, reaching all the way to the top of the head. As you inhale you call in God’s energy. As you exhale, you surrender to God. I remember this practice from somewhere, and I love how powerful it feels. Breathe mindfully, Elena I reminded myself. This you can do, even if you are being lazy, in bed. Small changes. One after the other. Body still, I knew the puppies would come towards me if they heard any movement, asking to get out and get fed. I recall now, sitting at my desk, the mental note I made of how it felt to be completely still, taking an inventory of the details, so I could write them down as I am doing now. 

As my fingers move on the keyboard I feel the beating of my heart, like a drum drumming a familiar tune. If I slow everything down, if I breathe more mindfully I can go inside the drumming. It’s like a cuddling vibration that makes everything all right. I find the omnipresent place of expansion here; it reminds me of the impermanence of it all. There is no rushing (I hate rushing) nothing important to do, nowhere to go and nothing to be. Except here in this moment typing one letter after the other. It just is. The heart is about trust, trust in the universe to lead you more and more towards God. 

So you see, even staying in bed can be constructive, if it brings you one step closer to the Divine. 

Thanks for reading❤️