Mere Medium

Mam please take back this 1000 rs called Komal Sharma!

As part of my seva 4 years back , helped a poor ,needy , extremely malnourished patient with a ,1000 rs to conduct an MRI inside AIIMS hospital.

Since it is against my policy and seva ethics to ever give hard cash to any needy directly for fear of misuse,i always get funds directly donated to a chemist, grocery shop, diagnostic centre or dylasis center or an educational institute 

But there were circumstances i couldn’t win like same time for picking my kids from bus stop when Komal s test was to be done inside AIIMS hospital or i would have gone myself and paid the bill but i was caught up and there was some truthfulness in her eyes which made me believe this vurnerable Mother of 4 who was all by herself sick , poor and well mannered.

The next evening in core January winters of Delhi this truthful woman who doesn’t still have funds or resources to pay her house rent or procure a next square meal called me to say i take back the 1000 rs cash given to her for the test as she had pleaded to the Doctor incharge and got a complementary test from AIIMS.

For those who have not worked on ground all Government hospital are free for medicine and tests for poor but actually the test dates they give are usually next year for a patient who is in immideate need aswell the medicine they give are just for fever ,cough, acidity or fever or pain! The expensive and state of art medicine the patient has to buy themselves.More about this later.

By her strength of character Komal had won my heart! Ofcourse i never took the money back and asked her to buy ration for her kids.

I got Komal a job as a house help in a freind s house but the failing health of Komal , Anemia, dizziness and blood vommitings din t permit her to work for more than 15 days in any house hold .

Her husband was a small time boot legger so had left her with 3 daughters and a son and an old mom in law and extremely sick body and no shelter on head.

After that Komal was helped umpteen number of times for food, medicine, fees,kids uniform, tution fee,fare to go to father’s funeral at village .

After Komal being helped constantly for more than 3 years consulting a co devotee who is a regular donor, i decide we should stop the help or she ll never be empowered.

The next time Komal asked for help for depositing a major fee ammount for her Son who was to join school post covid,i dint respond but when she sent her Son’s i card the names on it made my ego melt!

The Father s name on the i card was Amit Sharma ( Swami ji s poorv ashram name) and the child s name was Varun( my kid s father s name). How but i would not help her?

I thought of writing this many times but felt shy feeling it would look like flaunting a seva but today is Komal Sharma s daughter s b.day and she sent me a voice message requesting a b day cake!

Doesn’t a child who’s dad has abandoned them deserve some happiness and that too when her b.day corresponds with that of my husband?

Who are we.

Just a medium.

P.s..may be due to Komal Sharma s immense gratitude for whatever Divine mother made me do for her i met my Soul mate Komal R of os.me who laughs, plays and sings with me all the time!