My Journey to Varanasi…part 4

After coming from Manikarnika ghat we slowed down our boat at Kedar ghat. Auto driver bhaiya insisted that we should visit  Gauri Kedareswar temple.  There was no reason to deny his offer.  We took off our shoes in the boat itself. Golu told he will stay at the boat itself. So I , myself and driver bhaiya got down and started towards climbing the temple. There are long and big staircases towards the temple.  I f you search in google, you will find the pictures of the long staircase.  While riding the steps you will feel as if you are climbing towards some mystery land, some cave.  (it was my personal feeling. you might feel some other energy or  your experience will be different.). The steps are narrow in the top and barricade is made to support. A person with high blood pressure might feel uncomfortable while looking down from there.  The steps are made in marble.  I  saw there were water coming out of the temple. The flowers , bel leaves (Aegle marmelos) all were floating. The energy inside the temple was extreme. It was slight dark . THe walls were looking like an ancient cave. There were lots and lots of diya. It was looking mesmerizingly beautiful. Everything was holy and divine. It was like some cosmic energy surrounding there. I felt completely charged in my mind.  Driver bhaiya told it is also called Ardhanariswar temple. And the feeling you will get here is very different and rare.  I recalled my trip to Amarnath cave 20 years back. It was the same energy i felt there too. By continuously walking through Pahalgaon route  my whole body was in pain. My feet were frozen and swollen.  But as soon as i entered the cave , my body pain was vanished. though it was freezing cold outside the cave , inside it was soothing and warm. 

                                                                                                                   What is divine? When you see GURUJI, you feel divine. When Swami  , beloved Master stands in front me, looks at me, smiles , nod his head  i feel divine. You all feel divine.  It is the same experience. Right??? You do  not feel it in the movie theatre , no matter how good is the movie.  you do not feel it in any restaurant.  You feel it in front of your Master. You smell that divine fragrance. How is the night flower’s scent? How you feel when you see the full moon?   You feel pure.  That is divine. I felt it inside Gauri Kedareswar temple.  The air inside the temple made me light and pure. I want you to go and experience yourself.  Your feeling , your experience will be different from mine.

We did puja inside the garva griha  and came back.  The temple was there in my mind for a long time.  On our way back, we came across the Panchganga  ghat.  The union of Ganga, Jamuna, Saraswati, Kirna  and Dhupam.  Driver bhaiya  insisted to take ganga jal from there only.  I collected the holy water. It was my another beautiful divine experience and journey in fragments. It was a page , very sacred from the book of my life.  So I will embrace many things which will purify me, which will make me more humble , which will teach me to accept this vast creation in its own form.  In the entire time, Master was there in my mind.  I am so tiny and so small.. I realize, my cremation   may not happen in mani karnika ghat, but my body will perish and ashes will be scattered somewhere. Fire will consume me with RAM NAM SATYA HAI,HARI NAM SATYA HAI. One day I WILL BE GONE. But the energy inside me, the divine feeling which i felt, which i experience in my mind will be there in this air… in this cosmos.

                                                                                                          To be continued….