Night 1

Even though I haven’t done any Sadhana ever in my life, even though I don’t know Sanskrit, even though I don’t know what the outcome of any Sadhana would be, I decided to go for the Sri Suktam Sadhana.

I am a mere mortal so I don’t really know what the Divine Mother has in store for me. The challenge that I faced was: 

After an intensely hectic schedule that I have beginning in the wee hours of the morning I was dead tired at 6pm. I usually am. Having to manage my mother’s entire physical existence sometimes really gets on my nerves. But I have come to accept it since there is no way out. Currently I sleep deeply for exactly 4 hours. And two meals a day. Thank God that I eat! The rest of the time I feel like a zombie. All my consultant work and writing takes place in between. Too many things with too little time.

On top of that a bath before chanting the mantra makes you way way sleepy. But a decision was a decision so I knew I had to begin.

So I sat at exactly 7pm and began. I could only complete one round of 108. It took me exactly 1 hour. I suppose not knowing the language does make you slower in chanting. I don’t know if this is going to count or not. A little disappointed but I consoled myself. Next time I will be better prepared. Perhaps it would be better if I got some sleep in the evening and began chanting at midnight.