On the Edge of Paradise

Jai Sri Hari everyone, I hope you all are hale and hearty and eagerly awaiting the Navratri to start. 

When it concerns the matters of my heart, my relation with my Isth is such that my belief in Him is carving out its logic to beleive in him more and more and this gives me a lot of strength. I am in my quest for beautiful perspectives, discovering my truth. 

A few days back when I was returning from the office, I played an English romantic song on Spotify, and I was listening to it on loop while waiting for the driver to arrive. Slowly, I  drifted into a feeling of joy, and in that state of joy, some clarity hit my mind which brought me to a state of bliss that I am in since then.

It so happens that I listen to romantic songs remembering my Bhagavan alone, and in that moment of clarity, this particular thought arrived and struck me so hard that I could immediately realize its profoundness which can be subjective but which for me became definite.

What I realized was a perennial truth ever shining on the landscape of our consciousness awaiting to be embraced and that is –‘Mere pas Bhagavan to hain.’ (I have the Lord with me).

Let me explain this understanding:

I realized that no matter whether I get enough wealth or penury, no matter I get fame, defame or none of both, no matter I get a good partner or not, no matter I get true friends or not, no matter I experience diseases, accidents or good health, no matter I do mistakes or good deeds, no matter if I live or leave this body, no matter what happens to me, ‘mere pas Bhagavan to hain, itna kafi hai’ (No matter what, I always have my Lord with me and that is more than enough).

My Bhagavan is present in my life and gives me all the love and strength I need. I realize that even if everything goes awry, I still have my Lord with me sitting in my heart who is the source of all blessings and benevolence, and I am in bliss with this realization. 

He is so benevolent that He will accept me no matter what without any T&Cs applied and that kind of love you do not find in this world. If I do something good I mean this when I say that it is all my Bhagavan’s grace that I could be an instrument for betterment. 

But, even if I do some mistakes consciously or unconsciously, I mean this when I say that I do not worry; for to err is human and Bhagavan always loves me despite my shortcomings. I just need to be always aware that I do not hurt anyone intentionally.

I do not mind what happens and that is the secret to my peace and happiness. I do not mind if I become famous, or a nobody, or rich or poor, loved or unloved, scolded or praised, understood or misunderstood, healthy or wounded, I do not mind if I go abroad or not, I do not mind if I get any spiritual experience or not and I do not mind anything else going good or bad as well. 

All I know is I will do what I want to do in whatever capacity I can and never mind what happens. I can love everyone without expectations because that creates boundaries and suffering. I want nothing from anyone except my closest people from whom also I just want a few moments of smile and laughter. 

Loving others keeps me strong and in bliss. This does not mean I tolerate ill behavior in thought or deed, in fact, in such cases I will adapt or amend according to the situation and forget and forgive that person for my peace of mind. I find it a wonderful antidote to the venom of jealousy or hate that one should keep praying to God for that person’s happiness. No matter who the person is I always remind myself to pray for their happiness.

‘Bhagavan tumhe khush rakhe’

May God shower you with happiness.

Dear reader, My humble obeisance to the Divine in You.