Resignation at Crossroads

They say, 

when there is no hope

wait a little while longer 

there will be smiles before the end of the show 

the road will take a turn 

so soften up and let lose 

–

sometimes though 

nothing makes sense 

or even moves your senses

there are no questions 

nor answers

just an endless gaze 

not knowing where to stare

–

thinking, maybe I wasn’t meant to be;

walking on a path that pulled me 

more than i could resist 

–

there is struggle everywhere 

in the curl of the lips 

a walk to the river

to the temple 

or just to be 

–

these cross roads have always been my destiny 

circumstances changed

even people did 

but,

these struggles always remained

–

these cross roads were always 

where i was

–

Today though, 

I resign

from all challenges that could bring success & glory 

from chasing unfulfilled dreams 

all expectations ; from myself and from you  

cause you would be cold 

and turning away 

anyway

–

I own my sorrows 

and the pedestal laid out in glee

I own the mistakes 

the ones 

i tried to resist 

and the ones i did to coexist 

–

Today, i accept my own resignation 

from all the coming 

and going 

in the world 

and away from it