Sooner or Later .

So here i am. ..sitting at the airport, time to go home. The 16 days sadhna finally has come to end. How fast it went. The experience during the sadhna was worth learning for me. As I did the three years pre rituals for Sri sukta sadhna I was supposed to do the purascharana.  I remember  when i first booked the days in ashram  i did not get the full 16 days and it was chaos for me. Then the technical issues were also happening. Then it showed that booking for sri sukta sadhna is closed.  I requested Kailash bhaiya @kailashsimha to find a spot for me to complete the sadhna where i could be alone and do it. After much enquiring  he found out a place near Bangalore.  So though i was disturbed i mentally prepared myself to go to Bangalore.  And then the twist happened. Grace… is nt it??? I got call from Vasudev ji that i got all 16 days  and the technical glitch is not there. I can book. 

1.           So it was God’s grace, Guru ji’s  blessing that I finally completed the sadhna with my guru. I wonder how the three yeRs have finished also. In these three years during the ritual of Sri sukta  , I made mistakes in puja , my time table was disaster because of the pattern of my work. As i am an artist and most of you know that in film shooting there is no discipline in time.They can give you call time at morning 6 and pack up can happen at 2am. So all mess…i was not punctual at certain times. But I never missed  a day. I did it no matter what. Sometimes with headache, tiredness, sometimes mechanically mind did not want to sit. This is my truth. But I did not miss a day. So every beginning has an end. The starting day will come to and end day. So by the Krupa of God I was able to complete it with my guru, the ever compassionate one.

             Today ,at the yagyan stahla  Swamiji told we all give him so much love. He said most humbly i dont deserve.  I am asking this question to me?do i deserve? Your compassion, humility,  your gentleness, your dedication to us your showering us love by working hard day and night is just irreparable. And you say about deserving… you are a saint. You do not know what you mean to me or us.you are the messenger of God. What more can I say? It is grace only we have come this far. I do not know what i deserve  but i do know that in any birth i might have done some good deed. Some real good deed.i got you. Koti pranaam..