Thank You Prabhu

Dear Swami ji

Pranam.

I am feeling so many emotions these days so thought of sharing with you. Your birthday is soon approaching and I know many people will express their love to you that day, as I may not be in a position to write anything that day, why not express some feeling today 🙂 

Firstly, I am inspired by you. I mean how can you do all that you do with such ease. We find 24 hours less for doing even our routine things and you, divine-my lord, in your human form does everything so smoothly without a slight sign of irritation.

Maintaining physical health, writing for blog, playing piano, unending meetings, and let’s not even discuss the time and efforts you put for us , sadhana app and similar events. Kaise kar lete hain prabhu aap?

I am unable to do even half of my decided routine for any single day. I am struggling to be productive these days. Swami ji sometimes life is really tough for householders. You were right we are doing a great sadhana too 🙂

You know swami ji I did Sri Suktam sadhna this year. Though the number of chants I did were insignificant even to mention here and rituals were not followed at all, but I felt that your grace was there and I could finish it with no difficulty and also had some bhaav. Best part is my 6 year old daughter has learnt few mantras in the process, specially the one invoked by lord Vishnu, 11th one to be precise, is her favourite.  Hopefully I will do it again next year with a slight increase in the number of chants too.

These day I miss you a lot and do not know why. I have no problems in life, everything is going fine but I feel I am not doing enough, especially when it comes to remembering you. Though I am trying to be mindful to follow the virtues taught by you, I feel guilty of not able to remember you.

Recently one day I was overwhelmed with emotions when I realised for the whole day I didn’t remember you sincerely and see you grace- a lovely devotee shared something beautifully which mentions guru never leaves his disciple. I prostrated before you with teary eyes.

Swami, I love you, I am still very naïve when it comes to the path of sadhna or meditation. I still do not follow any rituals but my respect, admiration and love for you is pure. And it is growing day by day. With your grace only I have come to realise your presence in my life is much more than as compared to your physical existence.

Further, with your presence I am able to practice mindfulness and develop some change in my perspective, which is helping me to deal with difficult people and situations calmly.

Just give me direction and wisdom to overcome my strong emotions of love which I have realised is not needed to be expressed in this Kalyug. Take away some emotions from me lord, it creates problem.

All the experiences of life and your guidance has definitely helped to guide people around me through my approach and words. Please give me more wisdom to help more people.

Damn I am such a beggar always asking for something but you are everything to me and if I don’t ask how you would know, hai na? 🙂

Practicing gratitude has helped me a lot. Other than good tasty food, many of unnecessary desires have died down happily and I am not complaining.

I can go on talking to you lord because after a long time I am writing to you. I seek forgiveness for some anger that I show to my daughter who is actually a pure soul but I need to be firm sometimes. I will improve, I promise.

Also wishing you happy birthday in advance. I don’t know if I will be able to write down my bhaav in the form of poem that day but please know I love you.

Thank you swami for keeping your hand on my head. Thank you for staying back in your physical form to guide many souls like me. I am indebted for whatever you do to make us feel safe, protected and loved. It is a beautiful feeling and I can’t express. I feel home under your feet. Never ever leave me.

पत्थर सी पड़ी थी मैं कहीं
तूने छु कर सोना कर दिया

ग़म की काली बद्री थी ये ज़िन्दगी मेरी
तेरी एक नज़र ने हर तरफ अब उजाला कर दिया

(I was lying like a stone somewhere
your touched me into gold,
My life was a dark cloud of sorrow
Your one glance has now lit it up )