Way to Go..

My infinite salutations to Master. My humble pranaam to Master for everything  . How can I express the emotion which I feel every moment here in ashram?I have no words for it. The huge gathering for sadhna is mesmerizing.  The souls in forms of humans are flickering and flying here and there. They are everywhere.  They laugh , they cry, they smile, they are silent. In the morning infront of Yagna kunda they glaze and it feels like a different place. The fire consumes all. The mantra consumes all. Sometimes in bhav  they cry when Master finishes everything and walks on the red carpet and goes to His abode.  OH SWAMI OH BHAGWAN OH BUDHHA PLEASE COME BACK. NEVER LEAVE US BEHIND. WE ARE VERY WEAK. WE CAN NOT WALK LIKE YOU. THINK LIKE YOU. CHANT LIKE YOU. HOLD OUR HAND AND LEAD US TO AWAKENING.  There is still to know. Know you and know Mother through you. 

           What is sadhna?I think it is to purify the self..  It is a sacrifice for the bigger ..and spritual sadhna is to know the knowable.  To gain wisdom and to be completely one with the Brahma. You said we are not ordinary souls. I wonder? What karma i did to meet you?what karma i did so that i am sitting here with you? I wonder. It is your grace only . In my limited mind i know that I am ordinary.  So ordinary that i ask questions everything. I ask and ask. My questions are endless. My bhav is also very small. But one thing I am sure.. the thread between you and me is of that energy.  Should I say I am scared to loose you. Then yes. I don’t want to loose you. Because I stay in a logical world where people loose and gain. My conditioning is based on that.When you walk out to your abode after the yagyan ,I feel detached to you. I have never seen Mother Divine.  I do want to see Her manifested form. But i see you. I can feel you. You are that God ..a living one who walks with us now. Baki sabko humne pathar mai kaid karliya. Your grace is everything we need. Kya Pata bhagwan kal aap hi Hume Maa se Mila de..

P.s mujhe Hanuman ji bhi Milna hai..