Were You Insulted?

 The first experience of insult i felt was in class 8th when my father s first cousin who was more close to me as a real brother ( i had no siblings and no first cousins in country too) got his marriage fixed without informing us that he had seen a girl out of town where he went with 2 other female cousins and his mom informed my parents about same.Some where the budding teenager in me felt shattered over the amount of love and commitment i expected from him.

Then a teacher in class 10 once remarked in the class that how i might be playing last evening but she was cursing me seeing my poor hand writing assignment,again i felt how can a teacher curse u?

Then was first crush in 11 th who had no interest in me for my unconventional tom boyish looks with a Russian wrestler figure,his non concent made me feel insulted.

In office once the boss said if you could go out while i talk to him? I and another colleague  were in his cabinin middle of a discussion where all were equally involved and required.( the tone was quiet demeaning).

The style of my holding spoon while eating, keeping my feet while walking, showing my teeth while laughing or sleeping position while lieing down all were an area of disasproval for my mother in law and a perimeter to break circumference of my Fat ego.

Once we went with my daughter to her freind s house who s Mother said this is my son s studying time ,i suggest you call Each time before you plan to come.( Now that my children study aswell that mom was working i feel it was a genuine concern), but the way she said it was not that humble.

Numerous times when my over expression of love made my immideate family feel arrested they were non merciful in giving me jolts of thorny crowns!

Recently a co devotee whom I use to feel as an extension to me never informed me of her ashram visit thinking we should not reveal our plans to others or they ll never mature and then when just a day before her visit i got to know our dates of going to Ashram are just a day apart,i asked her should i accompany in your taxi? Her response was not that welcoming…or maybe my ego expected some Fool maala.

At ashram too i was about to sit with a family but they said there was some one else who is a little famous and significant ( financially, socially and education wise).i felt insulted.

Now tell me os.me family was i insulted in all above or was it my ego playing Tandav?

Do share how you overcome these negative emotions?