Greetings!!
Today ,I just wanted to share something I can’t really cope up with .
It’s hesitation.
More like hesitation to speak infront of people or hesitation of showing my true own self …..
Since I was a kid , I was kinda scared of the crowd and so , I avoided going to such events . I was not fond of meeting people or going to social events ( and made friends who have same interests as me or when someone approaches me first [bad habits😔 ] ).
Now , as a teen , these things got worse , thanks to overthinking. Scared to speak up because I think more of what people think than expressing myself .The words are genuinely just stuck , not coming out as I want. That almost blank expression of mine make people think I’m uninterested , it may happen that actually I’m not interested but there are also times where I am interested but just don’t speak up because from what I know I will overthink about those words later sometime. ( In addition , I don’t even dance openly )
But , when I was in 8th grade , for a change I tried making a lot of friends, opened up with people , sharing things .
I tried participating in morning assemblies and I once had a chance to conduct one , the weekly Friday quiz but I messed up by speaking gibberish out of nowhere so I never tried doing something like that again 🙂 . To be honest , I think about it and feel embarrassed .
Now guess what’s next……..
Because of the lockdown , I lost contact with a majority of people I called friends in 8th . Now it’s hard to talk without being awkward.
The hesitation is really something I’m not good coping up with but trying again , it’s kinda hard to break off the shell but I really hope I enjoy things heartily what I never enjoyed .
With Smiles ,
Gaarvi 😃
Jai Sri Hari 🙏
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