Being Disciple of a Tantrik

I remembered Swami ji s innocent smile when outside Gurudwara a day before Diwali my husband said which Tantrik Mantras do u listen too?

I had just informed him that i ll be undertaking Sri suktam sadhna of 16 days starting on Deepawali night and it will not neglect any house work or routine.

It was essential to inform my each day Gurudwara visitor virtuous husband that his wife will bathe twice and only wear red clothes as per directions of Swami ji so that the not so usual behaviour and routine aswell restricted diet of no onion and garlic may not make him wonder his wife turning to a Tantrik ( a dreaded word).

He was not too pleased hearing my resolve and said how can u get so superstitious and rustic?

Some questions don’t have any explanation and better to avoid convincing a non believer ( they light jyot each day in there home since generations) ,to believe in my Guru s instructions.

Around 4 years back when black Lotus app was revamped and chanting section was introduced in it ,i often use to put Navaran mantra and sleep with Swami ji s deep voice acting as a soothing Lulla by.

Once it so happened on extreme January winters of Delhi my husband came back from Gurudwara at midnight,that night i had not put earphones and Swami ji s chanting was going on in dark night! He opened the house door with his own keys and was extremely scared seeing us sleeping like logs and the mantra chanting in back ground. He asked me we have small kids, which Tantrik is influencing u?

This time he said when i informed him of my Sadhna schedule..i was scared u ll give balli of our kids!